My own demon

There are a few ppl in the world that I would do anythin to them...I dunno if they realize it or not. Last night is another example. I just dun know how to say no to that particular person. I have a very complicated issues regarding relationship. Come to think of it... I always go after someone that i have very little chance of being with, someone who is either out of reach for certain reasons or maybe someone who is only comfortable being frenz with me and nothing more. I know there are some ppl who really like me, who really wanna be with me, but I dun why i dun give them the chance. When I like someone and in my naive way of thinking, I always think that patience has merit. Meaning if I wait long enough and show how much I like that particular person, maybe she will accept me. Weirdly enough, I never give any merit to that kind of effort showed by other ppl towards me. I'm really frustrated that some ppl never give me a chance to show what i can give but at the same time me myself never give other ppl the same chance. I guess it's true what they say...what u give, u get back.....better off being alone I guess....