Staring at the empty wall

Felling like it's all just a dream and I just woke up from it.Just 2 days ago, the last 8 months felt soo long.In fact it felt like the longest 8 months in my life, full of bittersweet feeling. Yesterday, all those memories keep spinning in my head but it felt like it's just a dream.A long dream which I have to wake up so sudden...and I'm left trying to figure what exactly happened...this feels so weird...awkward...and it feels like there's a big hole in my chest...so empty...no more of her voice in my ears...that familiar voice which I listen so often to everyday for the last 8 months...sigh...my heart is bleeding again...or do I still have a heart?If i do, why does it feels so empty inside?...but if I don't have it,why does it hurt? ...Now I guess I know how Neo felt when he 1st came out from the Matrix...such a lonely feeling with recent memories of everything felt so distance...am helpless...somebody safe....